apa mau jadi ne ? ? ?

ya Allah..aq ne kn mau SPM ba suda ne...astaga~tp smpai skang ne pn xda kesedaran lagi tuk struggle study!aiyaa~i dont know what will happen 2 my SPM result oww..ari 2 aq ada try2 laa ne rajin kn diri study add maths...and you know what had happened??i had cried!!!!!why???coz i dont know how to do all those things laa!aiyaa!apa la macam??mcm mana oww mau jwb spm nnt??sungguh!!!sy sungguh...RISAU!!!but...still do NOTHING to improve!aq pun xtau laaa napa keras sgt hati aq ne mau berubah..masa PMR dulu,ok jak aq study..even x struggle,tp still konsisten!!!PMR punya cerita laa...SPM punya cerita????emmm~okokok!aq kutuk diri sendiri ba ne kn???ok stop laaa!!!we just wait and see what will happen next!!!